It is hard to imagine how meaningless my current life is, and what even worse is I seem to get used to this kind of life. For an ambitious man that was once be, it is a great irony!
Ever I greatly expected sufficient time for my spare life I can spend freely. Now I have. Even much more than I can expect. When it really comes to me, how to schedule it becomes a problem. So many contradictions. When it comes to its nature, I need some impulses. To be more explicit, I need salary. There is one way to correct this conception. That is to work for myself. Too good to be true, and I doubt it. It is just an excuse for my boring life.
I always reluctant to change myself when I get used to one style of life. Reluctant to communicate, reluctant to study new, reluctant to fulfill my schedule even I know it is significant. All of these can not be defined as behaviors of clever man. Never to feel so confident about myself, never to be a narcissist. I am a fool...
Ever I greatly expected sufficient time for my spare life I can spend freely. Now I have. Even much more than I can expect. When it really comes to me, how to schedule it becomes a problem. So many contradictions. When it comes to its nature, I need some impulses. To be more explicit, I need salary. There is one way to correct this conception. That is to work for myself. Too good to be true, and I doubt it. It is just an excuse for my boring life.
I always reluctant to change myself when I get used to one style of life. Reluctant to communicate, reluctant to study new, reluctant to fulfill my schedule even I know it is significant. All of these can not be defined as behaviors of clever man. Never to feel so confident about myself, never to be a narcissist. I am a fool...
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