I can not remember the last time when I was as happy as I am right now. After walking in the darkness for a long period of time, the shining sun has already rose from the eastern horizon. Here it begins my new life...
When I heard from Dr. Guo that I would get the $750.00 per month in the near future, my heart nearly jumped out of my chest. It is the feeling that I have unloaded the burden impose on my shoulder for a long time(the burden?? it was supposed not to belong to me, which was another long story to tell, and it always hurt to recall). Now, the aspiration within me has been ignited again. Thank you for the opportunity I have been offered. I should prove to everyone that I deserve it!
The process of getting the assistantship was not as easy as I have imagined. And also I would say that I am a little fortunate to get it, which solidly proved that, keep INSISTING, the success is closely near and can be achieved as easy as to penetrate a piece of paper
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Speak for myself
What a fundamental and superficial saying! It is always easier to be said than to be done.To fully achieve the insidious action, I have a long way to go...
My mind is simple. I try to treat people I am in favor of with my whole warm heart, while meanwhile, I hope to be treated in the same. This is almost impossible. Now that I can not expect people pay back the same way as I offer, I should speak for myself, to guarantee that my part is not invaded. Do not be shy to speak it out, moreover, loudly!
My mind is simple. I try to treat people I am in favor of with my whole warm heart, while meanwhile, I hope to be treated in the same. This is almost impossible. Now that I can not expect people pay back the same way as I offer, I should speak for myself, to guarantee that my part is not invaded. Do not be shy to speak it out, moreover, loudly!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Adam, Megan and Matt
This is my first time to watch American Idol. It is amazing!
This is the eighth season, the best series I truly believe. I spent almost a whole week to watch it. It not only entertains me, but also reminds me, never to be ARROGANT. I love Adam( Kris and Danny is just so so, but I hate Allison). He should be the American Idol, and he always proves that he deserves the title. How could he fall into bottom three? When Ryan announced the result, OOOHHH, it is crazy! I love Matt and Megan, too. They are the types I want to be and hope to own. I felt a great pity when they were out of the competition. It is cruel...
The other property I learned from Adam is to be of FORTITUDE. He is No. 1, he deserves that and he believes that. But the result was totally out of our expectation! Crazy result! But this did not beat him down at all, even either give him any negative effect. The unfair result inflame the talent within him. It makes him stronger and stronger. He shows to me, to all of the people who are in despair!
The other property I learned from Adam is to be of FORTITUDE. He is No. 1, he deserves that and he believes that. But the result was totally out of our expectation! Crazy result! But this did not beat him down at all, even either give him any negative effect. The unfair result inflame the talent within him. It makes him stronger and stronger. He shows to me, to all of the people who are in despair!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Game Happiness
Things seem to develop in the reverse way opposite to my initial belief.
Third time moving to a new apartment, least but not the last. When I first moved in, I felt homeless and uncomfortable. I've got used to one style of life. Familiar rooms, familiar people. Now I need to learn them further again. As days goes on, the living here is actually not as boring as I've expected, but something fulfilling and interesting. What makes the change? The computer games!
Usually when experiencing an great trip, people get relaxed and full of energy. While I felt kind of blankness and afraid, vacuity of with my current life and afraid of my future. So many annoyances harass me, I can't escape. Now I need breathe fresh air. There are so many beauties which I can dig to ease my current situation. It is very important to find the pace of life, doing things within schedule.
At daytime, I can do some reading work. Reading some SPE articles and reciting everyday English words, more over, I can write a blog. Then it comes my happy time. We four guys share one common hobby: playing computer games. I could say that I am good at games, from the very beginning I learn to play. But now I lack that confidence, and I lag behind. Not because of my fading interests, but I inherently believe I will addict to them. Everything has two sides. I sacrifice my game time to do what I hold of significance. In reallity, I miss the opportunity to exercise my brain, and enrich my study life. Also I could share more common topics when talking with others. I do not want to be thought as man lives a monotonous life. Besides studying, I need to learn how to play!
Third time moving to a new apartment, least but not the last. When I first moved in, I felt homeless and uncomfortable. I've got used to one style of life. Familiar rooms, familiar people. Now I need to learn them further again. As days goes on, the living here is actually not as boring as I've expected, but something fulfilling and interesting. What makes the change? The computer games!
Usually when experiencing an great trip, people get relaxed and full of energy. While I felt kind of blankness and afraid, vacuity of with my current life and afraid of my future. So many annoyances harass me, I can't escape. Now I need breathe fresh air. There are so many beauties which I can dig to ease my current situation. It is very important to find the pace of life, doing things within schedule.
At daytime, I can do some reading work. Reading some SPE articles and reciting everyday English words, more over, I can write a blog. Then it comes my happy time. We four guys share one common hobby: playing computer games. I could say that I am good at games, from the very beginning I learn to play. But now I lack that confidence, and I lag behind. Not because of my fading interests, but I inherently believe I will addict to them. Everything has two sides. I sacrifice my game time to do what I hold of significance. In reallity, I miss the opportunity to exercise my brain, and enrich my study life. Also I could share more common topics when talking with others. I do not want to be thought as man lives a monotonous life. Besides studying, I need to learn how to play!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Trip New Orleans
Sometimes travel to new places leads to great transformation.
Thursday morning, I got up early not as usual. Have nothing to do but browsing in the internet. Benny came by and invited me to have a short visit of New Orleans. Actually, I inclined to do that. I just did not want to bring inconvenience to the family. Although I gave ambiguous words, I accepted the invitation in the end.
This was the first major city I had ever visited in America. A lot of skyscrapers and overpasses. All were typical for a major city. However, it missed the most important, crowds of people, fashionable people. When walking around the streets, there were always spaces to walk across. What we can admire was mainly the view of the buildings, the fixtures. In almost four days time, we visited the Lafayette park, U Tulane, U Loyola, aquarium(iMax), Big houses, zoo and national day night. It was an amazing experience.
I have been idling the boring vacation for too long. It gradually blunt and benumb my ambition. I tended to plan a common life, the life I thought of ease, but actually boring and unrespectable...I need to travel to new places, to pick up motivation, to ignite my inner flame!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
NO FREE LUNCH
I always consider myself as a generous man, sometimes I am proud of this. So whenever it is, I never stand on the side of encroaching men. This is one key factor to live a significant life. However, it is one's nature to encroach on others. Sometimes it is on anything but trifles, while sometimes it is on something that affects you. For the latter, it really hurt afterwords.
The house I have lived for almost a half year since I first came to America is just an exact case. I so believed in fate that I neglected the basic analytic work. At that time, everything seemed to be ready for me, and I encroached on the convenience that did not belong to me. So smoothly, feeling at ease and justified. Then the life followed was a nightmare for me, which was apparently calm I held until I came awake, when I realized I am going to lose much more. I lost the money, the reputation, and most important of all the confidence. The wrong step I need to pay for. How high the expense will be, it is a mystery...
The house I have lived for almost a half year since I first came to America is just an exact case. I so believed in fate that I neglected the basic analytic work. At that time, everything seemed to be ready for me, and I encroached on the convenience that did not belong to me. So smoothly, feeling at ease and justified. Then the life followed was a nightmare for me, which was apparently calm I held until I came awake, when I realized I am going to lose much more. I lost the money, the reputation, and most important of all the confidence. The wrong step I need to pay for. How high the expense will be, it is a mystery...
Monday, June 22, 2009
Fool man
It is hard to imagine how meaningless my current life is, and what even worse is I seem to get used to this kind of life. For an ambitious man that was once be, it is a great irony!
Ever I greatly expected sufficient time for my spare life I can spend freely. Now I have. Even much more than I can expect. When it really comes to me, how to schedule it becomes a problem. So many contradictions. When it comes to its nature, I need some impulses. To be more explicit, I need salary. There is one way to correct this conception. That is to work for myself. Too good to be true, and I doubt it. It is just an excuse for my boring life.
I always reluctant to change myself when I get used to one style of life. Reluctant to communicate, reluctant to study new, reluctant to fulfill my schedule even I know it is significant. All of these can not be defined as behaviors of clever man. Never to feel so confident about myself, never to be a narcissist. I am a fool...
Ever I greatly expected sufficient time for my spare life I can spend freely. Now I have. Even much more than I can expect. When it really comes to me, how to schedule it becomes a problem. So many contradictions. When it comes to its nature, I need some impulses. To be more explicit, I need salary. There is one way to correct this conception. That is to work for myself. Too good to be true, and I doubt it. It is just an excuse for my boring life.
I always reluctant to change myself when I get used to one style of life. Reluctant to communicate, reluctant to study new, reluctant to fulfill my schedule even I know it is significant. All of these can not be defined as behaviors of clever man. Never to feel so confident about myself, never to be a narcissist. I am a fool...
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